Drowning?
by Kasey on July 31st, 2012
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I texted Brad this afternoon to tell him that I would be attending a function that we had both earlier decided was best for me not to go.
His response: UR a sissy. The end.
Brad and I are both at a time in our lives, as is everyone we know, when life is just too busy. Life is busy with GOOD things and sometimes even great things but as I watch my schedule and events start to pile up, I start to feel like I am close to going under. You know they feeling, when your mouth is just on top of the water and any second you will gulp down a mouthful of water and silently slide under the water. That is how I am feeling right now.
This afternoon I realized that the problem is me. I don’t want to disappoint so I keep saying yes. I keep agreeing to things that I should not because I want others to think I can keep doing it all, that I can work, teach bible study, sit at my sons games and practices, and teach a few women's retreats on the weekend. Hello?! Can you say dysfunction?
Today, I realized I am a sissy.I keep adding and piling on stuff in fear of disappointing others or distorting my image.
One of my husbands best qualities is that he is unwilling to be something he is not. There is no pretending when it comes to Brad. I have wrongly wished he was a little less REAL because to be honest, we are all so busy pretending we are something we aren’t, that the real thing is uncomfortable.
“I can’t,” are hard words for me to say, yet those are the words God longs to hear from me.
When I say these words to Him, He responds with, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” (I Cor. 12:9)
Instead of drowning today in the waves of life slamming you, take time to float in the grace God promises when we say the words, “I can’t, but You can.”
His response: UR a sissy. The end.
Brad and I are both at a time in our lives, as is everyone we know, when life is just too busy. Life is busy with GOOD things and sometimes even great things but as I watch my schedule and events start to pile up, I start to feel like I am close to going under. You know they feeling, when your mouth is just on top of the water and any second you will gulp down a mouthful of water and silently slide under the water. That is how I am feeling right now.
This afternoon I realized that the problem is me. I don’t want to disappoint so I keep saying yes. I keep agreeing to things that I should not because I want others to think I can keep doing it all, that I can work, teach bible study, sit at my sons games and practices, and teach a few women's retreats on the weekend. Hello?! Can you say dysfunction?
Today, I realized I am a sissy.I keep adding and piling on stuff in fear of disappointing others or distorting my image.
One of my husbands best qualities is that he is unwilling to be something he is not. There is no pretending when it comes to Brad. I have wrongly wished he was a little less REAL because to be honest, we are all so busy pretending we are something we aren’t, that the real thing is uncomfortable.
“I can’t,” are hard words for me to say, yet those are the words God longs to hear from me.
When I say these words to Him, He responds with, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” (I Cor. 12:9)
Instead of drowning today in the waves of life slamming you, take time to float in the grace God promises when we say the words, “I can’t, but You can.”
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5 Comments
brad - July 31st, 2012 at 4:43 PM
I only say "you're a sissy" in love. :)
Dianne - August 1st, 2012 at 12:20 AM
I so understand this. There was a time where I was so overextended and I was a wreck. I can't say that I always have it down, because it still happens at times, but I have seen some improvements - all glory to God. In fact, here's an excerpt of a letter I wrote to the ladies in my Bible study group (5 Aspects - Lifegiver) you might enjoy:
Over the past year and a half, the Lord has been dealing with me regarding my tendency towards saying "yes" to just about everyone and everything, except my family, overloading my life in the process. He has blessed me with some wonderful gifts and talents for which I am very grateful, but I often fail to seek His will for their good use. While my desire to help others and utilize those gifts is good, it is not always God's best for my life. All too often I find myself in bondage to these good things I've jumped into without the Lord's blessing. The frequent result has been double-mindedness. I very much want to be a part of something, yet I'm frustrated by the lack of time I have for it. Because I am overextended, I can no longer give my best to anyone or anything. Every person and task gets too little time and a rushed, half-hearted effort. I've grown tired of an enthusiastic start that rapidly fizzles into nothing.
To that end, God has been calling me to give more of myself to my husband and children and it's time to answer His call. I believe that I can best honor the Lord by honoring the needs of my family above the many other things that call upon my time. Therefore, this will be my last night with this group.
Yep - I dropped out of Bible study right in the middle! But it was exactly what the Lord wanted me to do at that time.
Over the past year and a half, the Lord has been dealing with me regarding my tendency towards saying "yes" to just about everyone and everything, except my family, overloading my life in the process. He has blessed me with some wonderful gifts and talents for which I am very grateful, but I often fail to seek His will for their good use. While my desire to help others and utilize those gifts is good, it is not always God's best for my life. All too often I find myself in bondage to these good things I've jumped into without the Lord's blessing. The frequent result has been double-mindedness. I very much want to be a part of something, yet I'm frustrated by the lack of time I have for it. Because I am overextended, I can no longer give my best to anyone or anything. Every person and task gets too little time and a rushed, half-hearted effort. I've grown tired of an enthusiastic start that rapidly fizzles into nothing.
To that end, God has been calling me to give more of myself to my husband and children and it's time to answer His call. I believe that I can best honor the Lord by honoring the needs of my family above the many other things that call upon my time. Therefore, this will be my last night with this group.
Yep - I dropped out of Bible study right in the middle! But it was exactly what the Lord wanted me to do at that time.
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Kasey - August 1st, 2012 at 7:52 AM
Polly Norris - September 5th, 2012 at 1:53 PM
Just found your blog...and LOVE IT!! Needed to hear this because "I can't" isn't in my vocab either. BUT IT SHOULD BE! Thanks for helping me see that saying no is not a bad thing! Maybe I'll take a day off! LOL
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Kasey - September 20th, 2012 at 4:43 PM
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